You'll See

You think that I can't live without your love
You'll see,
You think I can't go on another day.
You think I have nothing
Without you by my side,
You'll see
Somehow, some way

You think that I can never laugh again
You'll see,
You think that you destroyed my faith in love.
You think after all you've done
I'll never find my way back home,
You'll see
Somehow, someday

Chorus:

All by myself
I don't need anyone at all
I know I'll survive
I know I'll stay alive,
All on my own
I don't need anyone this time
It will be mine
No one can take it from me
You'll see

You think that you are strong, but you are weak
You'll see,
It takes more strength to cry, admit defeat.
I have truth on my side,
You only have deceit
You'll see, somehow, someday

Chorus2:

All by myself
I don't need anyone at all
I know I'll survive
I know I'll stay alive,
I'll stand on my own
I won't need anyone this time
It will be mine
No one can take it from me
You'll see

You'll see, you'll see
You'll see, mmmm, mmmm

Sabar

Dijudesin itu asli emang nggak enak banget rasanya. Tapi haruskah menyerah hanya karena itu.

Anyway, ketika kita tahu dijudesin itu nggak enak, kita akan belajar untuk bersikap lebih baik kepada orang lain.

Dan kita juga jadi tahu, setinggi apapun jabatan orang, tidak jaminan orang tersebut faham akan etika berbicara di telp.

Dan juga akhirnya memahami, apapun yang kita rasakan akan keluar dari nada bicara kita. Lawan bicara juga akan bisa turut merasakan emosi yang kita rasakan.

Sabar dalam menghadapi segalanya, belajar dari segala kejadian. That's it. Simple, but believe me, it's not easy to do.
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Disco 2000

Well we were born within one hour of each other
Our mothers said we could be sister and brother
Your name is Deborah. Deborah. It never suited ya
And they said that when we grew up, we'd get married and never split up
We never did it although often I thought of it
Oh Deborah, do you recall
Your house was very small with wood chip on the wall
When I came around to call you didn't notice me at all
I said let's all meet up in the year 2000
Won't it be strange when we're all fully grown
Be there at 2 o'clock by the fountain down the road
I never knew that you'd get married
I would be living down here on my own
On that damp and lonely Thursday years ago

You were the first girl at school to get breasts
Martyn said that yours were the best
The boys all loved you but I was a mess
I had to watch them trying to get you undressed
We were friends but that was as far as it went
I used to walk you home sometimes but it meant
Nothing to you, cause you were so popular

Ah Deborah, do you recall
Your house was very small with woodchip on the wall
When I came around to call you didn't notice me at all
I said let's all meet up in the year 2000
Won't it be strange when we're all fully grown
Be there at 2 o'clock by the fountain down the road
I never knew that you'd get married
I would be living down here on my own
On that damp and lonely Thursday years ago

Oh yeah, oh yeah

Oh what are you doing Sunday baby
Would you like to come and meet me maybe you can even bring your baby
Ohhh ooh ooh. Ooh ooh ooh ooh
What are you doing Sunday baby
Would you like to come and meet me maybe you can even bring your baby
Ooh ooh oh. Ooh ooh ooh ooh. Ooh ooh ooh ooh. Oh.

Losing My Religion - REM

Life is bigger
It's bigger than you and you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no, I've said too much
I set it up

That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no, I've said too much

I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think, I thought, I saw you try

Every whisper
Of every waking hour I'm choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt lost and blinded fool
Oh no, I've said too much
I set it up

Consider this
Consider this the hint of the century
Consider this
The slip that brought me to my knees failed
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around

Now I've said too much
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think, I thought, I saw you try

That was just a dream
That was just a dream

That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no, I've said too much

I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think, I thought, I saw you try

But that was just a dream
Try try try try
That was just a dream
Just a dream

Mama - My Chemical Romance

Mama, we all go to hell
Mama, we all go to hell
I'm writing this letter and wishing you well
Mama, we all go to hell

Oh well now
Mama, we're all gonna die
Mama, we're all gonna die
Stop asking me questions
I'd hate to see you cry
Mama, we're all gonna die

And when we go don't blame us, yeah
We'll let the fires just bathe us, yeah
You made us oh so famous
We'll never let you go
And when you go, don't return to me my love

Mama, we're all full of lies
Mama, we're meant for the flies
And right now they're building a coffin your size
Mama, we're all full of lies

Well Mother, what the war did to my legs and to my tongue
You should have raised a baby girl
I should have been a better son
If you could coddle the infection
They can amputate at once
You should have been
I could have been a better son

And when we go don't blame us, yeah
We'll let the fires just bathe us, yeah
You made us oh so famous
We'll never let you go
She said "You ain't no son of mine"
For what you done they're gonna find
A place for you and just you mind
Your manners when you go
And when you go, don't return to me my love

Mama, we all go to hell
Mama, we all go to hell
It's really quite pleasant
Except for the smell
Mama, we all go to hell

2 - 3 - 4
MAMA! MAMA! MAMA!
MAMA! MAMA! MAMA! MAMA!

And if you would call me your sweetheart
I'd maybe then sing you a song
But there's shit that I've done with this fuck of a gun
You would cry out your eyes all along

We're damned after all
Through fortune and flame we fall
And if you can stay then I'll show you the way
To return from the ashes you call
We all carry on
When our brothers in arms are gone

So raise your glass high
For tomorrow we die
And return from the ashes you call

Kisah di Balik Dinding Kamar

Pekerjaan mereka menghasilkan uang yang sangat cukup lumayan, selain dari gaji yang mereka bawa pulang setiap bulan, mereka punya pemasukan sampingan berupa tips yang bisa mereka bawa pulang setiap harinya. For sure, tips mereka pasti lebih dari 100ribu perharinya.

Sore ini si cantik dari kamar sebelah dengan suara kencangnya sedang melakukan percakapan tlp dengan temannya di teras kamarnya. Dari percakapannya aku menyimpulkan iya akan membelikan temannya (perempuan) itu sesuatu kalau temannya itu bersedia datang malam ini kekostan dan menemani dia untuk mengantar abangnya ke bandara, karena abangnya malam ini harus kembali ke malaysia.

Ya orang seperti dia, tidak sayang dengan uang, beli baju yang bagus, berhura-hura setiap hari, membelikan temannya ini dan itu. Tapi sayang, satu hal yang mereka lupa, pekerjaan mereka sementara, dunia mereka saat ini sementara, pekerjaan mereka hanya akan membutuhkan gadis-gadis cantik yang masih belia. Sementara waktu terus berjalan, mereka akan menjadi tua dimakan usia. Lalu jadi apa mereka nanti, apa pekerjaan mereka setelah ini.

Ya, aku penasaran, pekerjaan mereka sudah lama ada, aku penasaran, jadi apa orang-orang yang sudah tidak dipakai lagi didunia mereka seperti ini, kemana perginya mereka.

Tanda tanya yang cukup besar hadir mewarnai pikiran ku hari ini.

Kenapa mereka tidak menggunakan uang mereka dengan lebih baik, dengan penghasilan mereka, jika mereka tidak terlalu berfoya-foya harusnya mereka sudah bisa membeli rumah, atau paling tidak di kost yang lebih besar dari tempat sekarang. Kebodohan terbesar mereka adalah menghabiskan uang yang sudah mereka dapat, untuk bersenang-senang, terlarut dalam dunia malam. Sibuk mempercantik diri.

Aku yakin, kalian memiliki alasan masing-masing dalam menjalankan kehidupan kalian seperti ini, menikmati hidup kalian sekarang ini. Dan tak bisa menutup mata, kalian hadir mewarnai kehidupanku, memberi pelajaran bagiku. Baik yang aku kenal ataupun tidak ku kenal disini, kalian adalah teman ku. Aku akan selalu mendoakan yang terbaik untuk kalian.

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Me, Taxi Diver, and an Old Song

On my way to Ministry of Finance.


Starting at 15:10 until 16:00 I still stuck in Jakarta’s Traffic.

Yes, it is the risk that we should take to stay in Jakarta. Prepare your mentality first before you come to Jakarta.

I using Blue Bird Taxi, the best taxi in town, I ask to the Taxi Driver to turn on the radio, then he do that based on my request. Hmm but what do you expect from that, is he will play the radio? If you think of it, you are totally wrong. He not turn on the radio, he play his favourite song. And do you know what kind of song that he played? He played an old song, Song that came from famous malaysian singer, yeah Siti Nurhaliza.. And fortunately the CD was broken, then he change into radio, oh thanks God you save me. Actually, I like malaysian song, I also like Siti Nurhaliza, but not for that moment, traffic moment, the most cruel moment in life. We listen to Female Radio. After I arrived in Ministry of Finance, the Taxi Driver waiting for me outside. Then, when I came back, the radio has been change into his CD again. :( Guess, what he play off now??? He play Indonesian song, still an old song. Do you know whose the singer?? Nike Ardila Alm. And that song accompanied us until the end of our journey today. Did you know what am I doing there?? Of course I will SLEEP!!!!

Yeah, it’s all about traffic, me and taxi driver. And of course ‘Old Song’. But, did you know what the good news from that. My headache just gone. I thought it causes by rest that I take for a while. Just believe me, God design everything that will happen to your life. Then human will decide the way to face their way. And human has different way to decide.

KNOWLEDGE

K N O W L E D G E




You can get of it from anywhere, and anybody, and anytime.



I just remember a moment in my life, that I can learn from it until now. When I have an interview with US Embassy. At that time I apply for a job at US Embassy Jakarta, then they called me for some test and interview. There are some candidates including me. Sit in the chair, waiting for our turn. Some girls looks so tidy, including me. I using my best clothes paired with blazer and short skirt. But believe me, it’s not too short.



We are waiting around 30 minutes in recepetion area. Then it’s my turn. I have typing test. That need less than 15 minutes to do. I think I will failed the test, because it’s not only typing test, but also translate test, from Bahasa into English, and from English into Bahasa. It some kind of formal letter from Government and public policies. I have no idea about some word. They talking about ministry, relatives government, legal and laws. There are many words that I couldnt catch it sir. But I try my best, I finish the test.



And waiting for result, to go to the next step of test. From 5 participant before, now only three participant left. Including me. I don’t know where the others. After waiting for 15 minutes for the result, they calling my name to go inside and do another test with someone that I don’t have any idea who they are. I should pass this test, to have an interview with the chairman of US embassy. This is a verbal test, He will read and I should translate it. Everytime he speak, I should translate that word. OMG, I reall want to ended this test soon.



At that time, I thought I will failed. But they asked me to stay, they will discuss about the result, and decide. Around thirty minutes, they calling my name. I thought they will calling me to tell me that I can go home, and waiting for the result. Ussually, when people ask you to do that, it means you failed. They will not give anything to you. Fortunately, they didn’t do that. They ask me to go inside and have an interview with chairman of US Embassy.



I’m nervous. I don’t know how to face him. But when I face him, He was a good man, very kind. Old man, with his white hair, and some fat in his body. But he looks nice, and warm. He indulge his hand to me. Shook my hand firmly. Then he start the conversation. I believe he know that I’m so nervous at that time.



In the middle of our conversation, he ask me about that, he ask me why I look so nervous. Then I told him, that I really nervous, because that is the first time I spoke to American people in formal situation. I know that my English was not good enough. I told him that in my previous company is china company, so I believe their english not good as american people do. Because we still learn, because we have our basic language, Indonesia using Bahasa, China using their own language. I have more confident to face Asian people then American people. And He told me wisely that I don’t have to be scared. Because in this world consists of many languages. American have their own language, English have their own language that we called British, Europe have their own language. He told me that he couldn’t speak in Bahasa or British, the only one language that he can speak is American language, because he came from there, and growth up in there. So I don’t need to be scared with language. He also told me that my english is quitely good, because I can pass that two test before, the only thing that i don’t have is CONFIDENCE. And the words that I always remember from him. “The most important thing in a language is how the message can be received well by the recipient. As long we have this conversation, I can understand what you talking about, and you also understand what I’m talking about. Am I Right?”.



Then I smile, give the best smile to him as a sign that everything that he said was right. He give me more confident to face the world. I believe he is a good man. Even I didn’t pass the test, because after the last interview, I never received any good or bad news from them. The positive thing from that interview, I brought the valuable thing into my life. I called it as knowledge. I got more knowledge from that interview. Is all about language. Finally, I understand, that language is not about right or not, language is about understand or not. Language is a media to communicate each other, language is to connected one nation to others.



That’s why I using my english to write this blog. I hope i can communicate with other people out there, and keep practice my English. :) Never scared to learn, never scared to fail, never scared to dream.



the most important thing is willing to learn.

Me and My Messy Life

11.00 pm: knock knock knock.. I open the door.. And I saw my friend out there, I've pleased her to come in, then we talk till drop..

01.30 am: she back to her room

02.00 am: Now I couldn't sleep at all.. Padahal besok pagi rencananya mau sahur, nyeterika, nyalon dsb dsb.. (ˇ_ˇ'!l)

Lagi Lagi.. Kayaknya belum saatnya untuk bayar puasa.. Ada aja halangan nya.. Besok juga bisa" ga smpt nyalon.. Oh rambut,apa kabarmu esok hari.

Sepertinya memang harus terjadi perubahan rencana untuk esok hari: bangun siang, lansung berangkat ke kantor dengan rambut dan baju seadanya, sarapan, kerja sebentar, makan siang, kerja lagi, baru ketemu para pembesar dengan rambut awut"an..

Ya inilah saya, seorang yang expert dalam prencanaan, tapi sangat buruk dalam pelaksanaan... (ˇ_ˇ'!l)

oh lenny lenny lenny, you never learn from ur fault, but u make it to be default.
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Red Hot Chili Peppers – The Adventures of Rain Dance Maggie Lyrics

Lipstick junkie be funky all he want
She came back wearing a smile
Lookin’ like someone drugged me
They wanted to unplug me
No one here is on trial
It’s just a turn-around

And we go
Oh
Well and we go
Oh oh oh oh

Tic-toc, I want to rock you like the 80s
Cock-blocking isn’t allowed.
Tugboat Shiela is into memorabilia
Who said three is a crowd?
We better get it on the go

Hey, now
We’ve gotta make it rain somehow
She told me too
And showed me what to do
Oh Maggie makes it in her cloud

I said, hey, now
We gotta make it rain somehow
She told me too
And show me what to do
She knows how to make it loud

Raindance Maggie advances to the final
Who knew that she had the goods?
Little did I know her body was one delicious vinyl
To your neck of the woods
I want to lick a little bit

Hey, now
We’ve gotta make it rain somehow
She told me too
And showed me what to do
Oh Maggie makes it in her cloud

You got the wrong girl
But not for long girl
It’s in a song girl
Cos I’ll be gone girl
Hey, now
We’ve gotta make it rain somehow
She told me too
And showed me what to do
Oh Maggie makes it in her cloud

I said, hey, now
I want to rock this rowdy crowd
She told me to
And showed me what to do
She knows how to make it loud

But not for long girl
It’s in the song girl
‘Cause I’ll be gone bye bye bye yeah
Bye bye bye girl

Me

Kadang ada satu rasa yang datang tapi tak diharapkan, kadang ada juga satu rasa yang diharapkan datang tapi dia tak ada. Kemampuan manusia untuk bisa mengontrol dirinya sendiri terhadap perasaan yang dimilik. Kemampuan manusia untuk dapat berkata tidak terhadap dirinya sendiri, dan kemampuan manusia untuk dapat berkata lakukan terhadap dirinya sendiri.

Selfcontrol emotion, itu mungkin bagian yang tersulit dalam rute kehidupan.

Manusia belajar dari berbagai kejadian yang menimpa dirinya, manusia belajar dari manusia lain di sekitarnya, beradaptasi, mencoba untuk membuat nyaman diri berada dalam suatu komunitas.

kejadian demi kejadian merupakan warna tersendiri dalam kehidupan, masalah demi masalah datang silih berganti, setiap manusia sejatinya selalu berhadapan dengan masalah, mungkin masalah yang sama, tapi masing-masing mereka memiliki penyelesaian masing-masing.

Ada yang mengambil langkah untuk mengabaikan masalah, dan menjalani kehidupan, menikmati setiap detik kehidupan. ada juga yang terfokus pada satu masalah hingga mengabaikan masalah yang lain. ada juga yang mencoba memecahkan semua masalah tapi lupa kehidupan di dunia ini hanya sementara, sedangkan masalah pasti akan selalu datang.

Pertanyaan yang kemudian timbul adalah:

"Haruskah masalah itu diselesaikan...????"

Haruskah kita yang menyelesaikan masalah itu...????

Apakah Tuhan sudah mempersiapkan jawaban dari setiap masalah-masalah kita...????

Apa yang aku rasakan dari semua masalah ku sekarang, yang menurut ku adalah masalah dari segala sumber masalah dalam kehidupan ku: aku tidak bisa mengontrol diri ku sendiri. Itu yang membuat ku selalu berkutat dengan masalah dan masalah tanpa bisa keluar.

Pertanyaan selanjutnya, bisakah aku keluar dari masalah ini.. atau akan kah masalah-masalah ini akan selalu menumpuk....

Karena jika aku tidak melepaskan masalah ini, aku hanya manusia yang berada di dalam tumpukan masalah tanpa bisa menikmati kehidupan.

Point utama ku saat ini adalah fokus untuk bisa membebaskan diri ku sendiri, untuk tetap bisa fokus menikmati kehidupan.

Aku harus sering melihat keluar, karena diluar sana begitu banyak orang yang memiliki masalah yang lebih berat dari aku.